Well today is Tuesday

It’s funny, how the days go by and it seems like nothing has changed.  This Covid thing has destroyed many lives, not only by deaths but with changing peoples lives.  I now suffer from Cabin fever and lack of jobs because who hires a photographer for an event that was cancelled?  I have had to lower my prices a bit to get smaller jobs like boudoir pics, small outside birthday parties or some smaller model shoots outside.  i have had to place my trust in friends that they are not contagious and even with that, I always wear a mask.

I now know that what I did was irresponsible but I have no choice.  I would do a job and not go out for a week to make sure I don’t have any symptoms or are contagious.  Anyway, for the better, I have taken both dosages of the vaccine, so next Monday I will be fully vaccinated.  Hopefully, people will feel more comfortable having me around knowing that I am not contagious.  I need the work.

I have been blessed to only get the arm pain associated with the vaccine.  I urge those that are thinking about it, to do it.  You will feel better and I believe it will become mandatory sooner than later.  I saw that the CDC is opening up more and more.  If you have the vaccine.  Do yourself a favor.  Take care of yourselves.

Today, that is all.

Another day in NYCHA

*sigh…It never ceases to amaze me.  I mean, you live in a place a long period of time and you would figure something changes.  But it doesn’t and I’m still surprised.   I’m still getting leaks from unplugged holes that NYCHA left when they came to replace the gas line.

I also get bullshit from the call center.  Listen!  If you don’t like your job, Quit!  We deserve more respect!  Como!!!

So back to life.  I’m working on a few different projects which makes me feel better and keeps me moving.  My ADD was driving me insane with not a lot to do.  I always have to figure out a way to get paid.  Family needs to eat ya know.

A few things are going to blow up soon as far as production and so forth.  People and fans are going to be pleasantly surprised at the outcomes.  Will be traveling soon as well. Plans are being made and I hope we can overcome the obstacles that always occur. Murphy’s law and all.

What else….Hmmmm….Still single and enjoying life.  I mean, at this point, it’s my life.  So we all must move forward.  Nothing to gossip today which is actually a good thing.

Having said all that…That is all.

Why are people so malicious

I don’t have much to take from.  But what I do have, I value immensely.  I get my weekly update from my site to see that people around the world are trying to get into my website.  Why?  It’s of no used to them except that they are just bad people.

I’m the first one to say that knowledge is power but the knowledge you can get from my website is useless unless I’m the one working it.  It is a personal talent that is needed to work it.  Other than that, you are just doing it to ruin people’s lives.

Anyway, I have been feeling some kind of way with certain people.  They have been getting on my nerves more than usual.  Maybe my meds need to be updated or something but my fuse has gotten so quick lately that I just don’t know what it is.  I am literally so frustrating that i find that I am becoming the asshole everyone thought I was back in the day.

I guess my guards are going up again and stopping me from offending others.  I am trying soooo hard that it breaking my brain.  So I have decided to be real quiet on my zoom this coming Thursday the 18th.  We’ll see how long I can do it for but I will do it.

Thank you for reading this if you have.

That is all.

Got a new LOGO!!!

If you are an avid reader of these blogs, you would have noticed that I have added my new logo.  Proud to say that it’s already registered with the Government and ready to go!

So here is the description:

I took the mask of Melpomine (Muse of Tragedy) and Thalia (Muse of Comedy) and meshed them together.  The masks themselves represent everything entertainment (Stage, Film, TV).

On the right side, behind the mask, you will find a piano keyboard, representing all the Music aspects of my business.  On the left side, behind the mask, you will find the representation of the inside of a camera lens (Aperture).

The actual full circle, represents a camera lens. The mask seems to be coming out of it.  It was designed by me and I had a friend finalize it for me.  I believe that it depicts all aspects of my business side.

I think the best part of the whole thing is that if you cover half of the face, you will be able to see both arts separately.

I hope all is well with everyone.  I know it’s been hard and with people still not wearing masks then complaining about getting Covid, I haven’t wanted to go out in a while.  I believe that we have gone thru the fire and are now coming out clean.

We just have to find a way to dust ourselves off, look back and be proud of where we are and continue to move forward.  Many major obstacles that we MUST overcome.  With That…

That is all.

So, um yeah..Doing the Dating site thing. LOL

So, yeah, like the title says, am doing the dating site thing.  I figure “What the hell, nothing else is working for me.”  I guess I am a victim of circumstances.  A friend told me that I have to get OUT of the LES to find someone compatible with me.

I have to admit, There aren’t too many pickings here in the Lowa. Either they are married, In a relationship or gay.  None of which I would be interested in.  I didn’t like it when the ex stepped out on me, why would I do it to someone else.

I have often asked myself tho, “Me atrevo?”. LOL  I have answered yes. But, very few times.  I have never done it tho.  I would be too scared at this point.  Karma is a motherfucker and I have seen her scorn!

People confuse life’s obstacles as being unlucky.  Luck has nothing to do with it.  All they have to do is find what is negative about life and remove it completely.  That includes family.  Even your spouse.

It destroyed me when the ex and I were done but I started new (Of course after I went thru the 5 stages of grief) and began to see life positively.  I can hang with the LES’rs but I have this thing where I know people judge me for my weight.

I am a big man.  But I am not defined by it.  I sometimes feel that some women should look in the mirror and judge themselves. (I know some do).  Everyone has a story.  It just sucks that, as a LES’r, I know most of them and people know most of mine.

I am good where I am.  I’m not looking for someone to take care of or someone to take care of me.  Just looking for a yin to my yang.  So, I started fresh and am going outside of my comfort zone.  Wish me luck Ya’ll!!

That is all.

I can’t wait!

I am so anxious for the day that someone sounds the “All Clear!” and we all can move around like normal people again.  I mean, “normal” will never happen but somewhat “Close to” would be a good thing.

I have so many things planned for when this whole thing is over.  What is Ken Bravo Entertainment without “Entertainment”?  Anyway, I was thinking of doing a “Body painting” session.  Maybe a fantasy/Cosplay?  Don’t know yet.

I have to do some club promotions/theatre promotions as well.  It’s going to be a great breakout for those that couldn’t do what needs to be done artistically to bring some balance to the world.

Presently accepting video resumes for my upcoming work.  As well as, headshots for future production work.  I am engaging in having a podcast or local LES artists news and stuff.  If it has to do with entertainment, I am interested in it.

My site will be big as hell.  I WILL MAKE IT WORK.  It is fore written.  Having said that, here is a big piece of advice that I actually learned on Tik Tok.  When God made man, he breathed the breath of LIFE into him.  From that moment on, to breath is to live.

When going thru stresses, depressions, disappointments and so forth.  Focus on God’s breath.  I promise he will help you recover.  I know it works for me.  If not, I would have been in a whole separate place.

That is all.

Being Real

Ever since I can remember, I have been blessed/cursed with my , some people say, brutal honesty.  I try to go with the old adage, “If you don’t have anything good to say, don’t say anything at all.”  Do you know how hard that is!!

The thing is that I do it without any malice.  I don’t say things to offend people.  Well, unless they are offending me.  I usually hope that what I am saying is helping them in one way or another.  It really is a show of love and respect.  In other words, “You should worry when I have nothing to say, it means that I really don’t care.”

People say I’m nosey and arrogant but, if that’s how you see me, oh well.  I do expect others to be that way with me as well.  but in truth, I, low key, sometimes get offended. THAT’S when I keep my mouth shut.  A defensive mechanism mastered from the start.

I have a special gift.  The gift of reading people well.  It works 95% of the time.  The remaining 5% is that of reading when women are interested in me.  I know how to flirt, I just don’t trust the woman’s intention.  Is it because she just wants to be funny or friendly?  Does she want to hook up or have a relationship?  Who knows?

That would explain why I am single.  And that’s fine.  It’s life.  The reason I say that is because I NEVER “Rapped” to a woman.  NEVER. We always started out as friends, then, when appropriate, it turned intimate.  BY the way, No problems there.

I’m thinking, I would rather a woman be honest with me and let me know, so that I don’t have to get anxious about how they feel.  At 54, how much time do I really have to decipher a woman.  Which, in itself, is impossible to begin with.

I often find that there are women that I can see myself with.  But, one day we have awesome conversations, then I don’t hear from them for months.  What’s the purpose of that?  It is really frustrating but I know, one day, I will be able to find someone to finish out my life with.

If not, it is meant to be.  As of right now, I’m good.  I’m real and…..

That is all.

Freedom of Speech

I love talking about this.  The ability to say whatever you want, wether it offends or not.  Of course, with the exception of creating harm or violence.  In other words, “You can’t enter a packed movie theater and yell “FIRE!”.

I once had a conversation with a friend about how “Sagging Pants” look stupid.  I asked him “Do you condone the way the pants are worn?”  His response was educational to say the least, “I really don’t like that style but I will fight for the right to wear them like that.”

I got that.  Everyone has individual tastes and thoughts.  To be a true American, is to have the ability to respect each others opinions.  Again, without creating situations that can cause harm to another.  To anyone.

The Presidential transition has brought so much relief to so many.  I have heard, “Oh my God!  How I cried in happiness!”  Others praise the leaving position holder as saying that he was the best President the world has ever had.

Again, I respect all opinions.  However, if you want to talk about it, please be available to listen and appreciate both sides.  I will not get into an argument with anyone that yells at me.

To my friends, I just wanted to say this.  If you are Black, would you support a President that wants to bring Slavery back?

If you are Puerto Rican, how do you support a man that throws us Paper Towels (Not even BOUNTY brand) and calls Puerto Ricans Non-Human?

These are the questions I ponder.  Thank You.

That is all.

A break.

Lately, and yes it’s because of Covid, I’ve been getting lazy and have gained at least 15 pounds.  I hang out at home with very to little motivation.

I want to do things but because of the geniuses that don’t wear masks in stores and stuff, I have decided to quarantine myself.  Only to Dr’s appointments and Groceries.

It’s just difficult to understand why people can’t do what is right as a whole.  I mean, they are the problem.  I’m hoping that things will get back to some kind of normal as soon as April.

So now, I am taking a break and my body is absolutely making sure it gets it.  Tired. Cranky.  Then again I was like that always.  Oh well.  I want to wish everyone an awesome 3 day weekend.  Please be safe and enjoy the time off.

“Treason”!!!

I have to laugh sometimes because the most obvious thing to charge the people that stormed the capital is not even on the table.

I am sure that EVERYONE there and participated in the attempted coup qualifies for a charge of treason.  A charge that if found guilty, would merit nothing less than the death penalty.

I believe that a country has to be questioned all the time.  This country relies on these principals, however, we must all agree that no one is above the law and that no matter what position you hold, you must own up to it.

The funny thing is that Clinton got impeached for a blowjob.  Why are they taking so long to render a quick judgement and just impeach the guy.  2021 will be a change for the better.

(Hopefully)

Let’s get things done!

That is all.